my struggle is not against the bugs

The past few weeks have been . . . (what word do I even use?) . . . a bit chaotic in the Funderburg household.

On Friday, November 18th, my husband and I were surprised to discover that we are expecting! That’s right, I’m growing a human.

There's a little one a'brewin'. #merrychristmas #babyFun #July2017 #Funderbrew

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On Saturday, December 3rd, we decided to go look at some car options since my beloved Cobalt blows across the road with a gust of wind and has a too-tiny-to-fit-a-carseat backseat. So, we settled on a 2013 Chevy Equinox from a reputable dealership in town. We loved the size and the color and the features and all was well. Until the days following, when we discovered a horrifying problem and I seriously had a conversation with myself about whether or not it was plagued (hint: post title. I know – ew!).

Beyond that, we’ve had some (minor) health scares and our heat go out (twice), along with my fun nausea and feeling of being gross and useless because of how tired I am.

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Without an eternal perspective (and trust me, that outlook is my initial reaction with things like this), it’s easy to get emotional (hello, hormones) and just downright frustrated pretty quickly.

But with an eternal perspective, it’s easy to see that the enemy is trying everything he can to steal, kill, and destroy our joy. Here we are, starting out the holiday season excited about a precious baby on the way, and in he steps with all-the-things. Jokes on him, because I’m onto his scheme.

I wonder what he’s trying with you right now? I wonder what nuisance, what fear, what doubt, what situation he’s pouring into your life to make you forget the goodness of God?

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See, my battle isn’t against the car or the heater, “but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms (Ephesians 6:12).”

Let’s choose to fight, my friend. And by fight, I mean stand still and let our God war for us the battle He’s already won.

“You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the LORD will give you, Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the LORD will be with you.” – 2 Chronicles 20:17

“The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.” – Exodus 14:14

I pray this over you, over us, and hope that you will grab onto the promises of God today and trust in His victory:

Father,

A whirl of frustration swirls around me as hard situations come and thoughts of doubt creep in. Today, I’m choosing to declare that in Your name, I have victory over the enemy and his schemes.

In Jesus’ name, I am blessed when I go in and when I go out. I am the head and not the tail, above and not beneath. In Jesus’ name, darkness, you have no power here. Sickness, you have no power here. Chaos, you have no power here! I declare that my God will trample my enemies under His feet, and will lift me up, blessing me with good things. I am His child, I am blessed, and no harm may come to me in the name of Jesus! My God will fight for me, I need only be still. At the sound of Jesus’ name, all darkness must flee, and all joy, hope, and peace reside. Thank you, Jesus, for Your sweet name, and for fighting for me.

In Your name I pray, Amen!

Finding Joy in the Journey

Senior year of college comes with lots of questions. Questions about the future and jobs and relationships and plans.

Wanna know something funny? I don’t have answers to any of them.

That little piece of fun fact hit hard at the beginning of this week when one of my professors (he meant well, God love him) stood up in front of the class and talked about the importance of job searching.

I sat wide eyed in my seat and remembered and really felt for the first time the harsh truth that I’m no longer just a college kid. I’m College Kid going on Grown Up.

Something I’ve been learning so far this semester (besides that distance makes the heart grow fonder and blueberry coffee is my best friend) is the distinction between living the journey and living for the destination.

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It’s hard when people are asking you all the questions to not focus on the end goal or the end result. I’m more likely to focus on what’s due next week than I am to pay attention in class. I’m more worried about the what-ifs of postgrad than the people around me who want me to be in community with them right now. I daydream more about future life than I enjoy the moment and stage I’m in right in this moment.

Do you feel this too?

I’m finding more and more that when I live for the destination, I miss out on the joys of the journey.

I’m challenging myself to be more in the moment and to enjoy the present because the present is a gift. I don’t want to get to the end of this thing called senior year and realize how much I missed out on because I was looking too far ahead.

After all, it does no good to stare at the mountains ahead and not watch where you’re going.