When You Feel God Has Failed You

There have been moments in my life where I have felt that God has failed me.

Maybe my prayers weren’t being answered the way I thought I needed, or I wasn’t seeing His promises being fulfilled in my life based on what I saw. Recently, I’ve allowed my surroundings to depict the truth about God’s love for me.

One day last week, I sat down to read my devotion from First5. And man, was it a good word.

It was based on Numbers 30, where Moses is addressing Israel’s leaders on the importance of vows – vows they made to God, more specifically.

“When a man makes a vow to the Lord or takes an oath to obligate himself by a pledge, he must not break his word but must do everything he said.” – Numbers 30:2

Now, I don’t know about you, but I take wedding vows super serious, despite the tendency of our society to throw them out the window pretty easily. Also, the fact that I’m getting married in 5 days (swoon) makes this vow subject a little more dear to my heart.

When I marry my best friend on Saturday, I will make vows to him in front of my closest friends and family. I will state promises complimenting the covenant I am choosing to make to him and to our Heavenly Father.

In the same way I will say those vows this weekend, I also made vows to God when I professed Him as my Lord in front of a body of believers. Do you remember that moment, when God saved you? So energizing, so refreshing, so new and exciting that no moment could even compare.

I’m afraid that sometimes our focus drifts and we become more focused on ourselves and our circumstances than on Heaven. Our newness of life wears away and our fire is dimmed – so we begin to engage in a lifeless and repetitive cycle of a request-filled relationship with our Father. If we don’t intentionally remain connected, our vows become duties or a checklist we become too tired to mark off.

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Will you join me in asking yourself some questions and giving yourself honest answers?

What are some vows you believe we make to God when we choose Him as our Lord and Savior? Write these down.

Do you believe you are fulfilling these vows in your every day life? If so, how? If not, what are some practical actions steps you could take to do so?

When was the last time you were excited to fulfill your vows to God?

I’ve seen in myself that when I am not intentionally committed and fulfilling my promises to the Lord, those are the times I tend to believe God is not fulfilling His promises to me. Could it be that God has not failed us, but is waiting on us to take the relationship more seriously? How do we expect God to honor and bless us when we so easily neglect our commitment to Him in big and small ways?

Let’s choose to believe that, despite our surroundings, God is good. Because He is. He always sees us, always loves us, and is always after our heart. But He will not push Himself on us. He’s already chosen us, we must choose Him back – day after day.

Then I will ever sing in praise of your name and fulfill my vows day after day.

– Psalm 61:8

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